I guess now I am just trying to find peace in my life and in my heart. I just really want to learn and grow from everything and everyone. I realize not everyone is going to like me. I know that. I am trying not to take that personal. It is sooooo hard to not have family here. It's so hard to not receive unconditional love from someone on a daily basis. I know my life is a treadmill right now. It's so hard to see it any other way. I like it this way. It is what it is. I hope no one holds that against me.